This is for no one.
It was today I watched a wonderful movie, Love Actually, which took me to those days, those wonderful days, those days of love, those days of life, those days filled with emotion, of course the nights of dreams, nights of thoughts, nights of imagination, those made me suffer from insomnia. Isn't it beautiful to love and to be loved.
I enjoyed the movie--bursting out with laughter, silently smiling, clapping... I wished I should have seen this movie with a drink. A chilled beer would have done the trick. Yet Perfect!!!
Lately I had been strangled by thoughts, which I was desperate to share with someone. Its all about....... LOVE. No no, it has nothing to do with a girl anymore. Its all about me. As I couldn't find someone, I m here. Hopping no one who knows me reads this, makes a fun of this, makes a sympathetic inquiry about this.
"Let the God save the king, keep the demons out, the secret be guarded."
Lets jump-in then....
What do I love?? Was I ever in love?? How was it then?? Did ppl. ever loved me??
I love friends, people, novels, movies, songs, work an' above all pondering about the past. "Shared memories". The last one being a curse.
Ya. I was in love. That was while I was at college, life was wonderful. No work, no deadlines, no worries, that too clubbed with a girl by your side, OMG thats what one would ever long for. Then I would say "Life is Beautiful", wouldn't I?? Its a pretty good story though. The finest part being we never proposed, but we both knew that is it. Days slowed down. Waiting days together for a single phone call, to my friend's mobile of course, planning accidental meetings, all this trauma was in fact lovely, doest make me tired. Puzzled. Though I was at college, she was at school, about 100 miles apart. "Isn't cursed a soul, which s teared into to two an' put miles apart". But the happiness was overwhelming. I thought we were just perfect. No cell phones those days, no SMS, no email, no GTalk. Haaaaaa, How the hell am I to talk to her then?? Imagine. But we were not taken aback, not by absurd nuances of technology, not like this. Hu hu. Here comes the trick... I wrote "inland letters" :D Pretty old-fashioned ha?? I still have a treasure trove of it in my safe. But the saddest part, hmmm, she has left me behind, not only me, but the memories too. The days we had, the dreams we shared, whatever. I dunno why she left me, I didn't ask her why, 'coz i don wanna know why. I never read those letters again, save one Valentines Day, about two years ago, read one line, merely one line, beyond which -- truth be told, I couldn't. I just couldn't.
Anyways the damage is already done.
Makkalae!!! "Think twice before you love", 'coz you will never know whether your other half still thinks of you, still loves you, still bangs his head for you, even after you dump him. Mad I've become with this useless piece of advice.
Having loved already, doesn't I know love is all about "just falling" and not "thinking".
Did someone else ever loved me again?? Did I loved any of them back??
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Thats a secret!!!
Love is for everyone.
"Live fast, die soon, leave a beautiful corpse behind!! Meanwhile take some time to love."
